Saturday, April 20, 2013

Yellow Flowers

I started the day reading chapter four in A Confident Heart by Renee Swope.  This is a book that I'm studying in order to prepare for a small group for women that I'll be starting in our home.  The chapter deals with using the ugly past to help others that might be going thru similar struggles.  The author writes that she kept waiting for God to give her a new story to use.  She believed that the past was just too ugly to be shared.  As she grew in Christ she realized that she was being called to use that ugly past to give glory to God today.  

I began to review my past, all the failures and disappointments.  Just last week I was praying and I asked God what he wanted me to share with these women.  What I received was one word - TESTIMONY.  Romans 8:28 is God's promise to us that He will work things for good.  Using the stories of my ugly past could help bring healing to another woman today - this is working the ugly past for good.  I'm telling you God is so awesome that He can turn something so ugly into something so beautiful.   

Today David and I were at Lowe's buying flowers for our landscaping.  We had two red rose bushes and several flats of petunias.  The petunias were in beautiful shades of pink, purple, and red.  When I thought we were ready to check out, I couldn't find David.  I found him with a sales clerk.  He was trying to find some yellow flowers about the same size as the petunias to give a pop of yellow in our flower bed.  Now David could not care less about yellow flowers, but he knows that yellow flowers are my very favorite.  He wanted to be sure that I had some yellow flowers.  Now I know that this yellow flowers story has little to do with using your testimony for good, but my ugly past has been replaced with lovely yellow flowers.  Pink, purple, and red ones too!

If you are reading this post, you have been prayed for.  

Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death,
that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father,
even so we also should walk in newness of life.
                                                                 Romans 6:4

Have a blessed day!
Yolanda, the McLean Queen

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Linda Made Me Do It! God told her to!!

Hello blog, nice to see you.  It's been a long time!  You all are just as lovely as you used to be.

Well, it's been a while.  I kept thinking that I would write right after this, and then right after that, and well I didn't want to tell any stories halfway.  Then I feared I would be boastful and I didn't want to come across as bragging or give glory to myself when it all belongs to Jesus.  So, let's just say that David and I have been blessed and we see God's hand in it all the way.  What I want more than anything is to take what God has given us and bring Him glory and honor with it.  

Last weekend we were blessed to have our Pastor and his wife in our home for dinner.  We shared some really great food, but the best part was the fellowship.  Before they left our Pastor prayed a blessing over our home (that may have been my favorite part).  When David and I were cleaning up I asked him if he felt the love that was in our home.  His allergies acted up a little bit when he answered me that yes he could feel it.  So, there are many stories about how God gave us this home but I pray that there are more stories of lives led to Christ in our home. 

A couple of days ago my very dear friend, Linda, told me that God woke her up at 5:00am directing her to ask me about my blog.  It had been on my mind, but I haven't had clear direction what to write about.  Linda and I are serious prayer partners and I believe that God gave her a message for me because she prays so earnestly for me.  It took me a couple of days, but I figured that I'd like to sleep tonight so I better just write something.  Plus what if God wakes Linda up again at 5:00am or earlier?  I'm liable to hear about it! 

I think one of the reasons that I've not written is that it's very emotional.  In order to fully embrace where I am now, I must go back to where I've been.  I must be willing to acknowledge the brokenness that existed in order to see the healing that has occurred.  I must remember the names that I was called or feel the fear all over again in order to embrace the freedom.  I'm not saying that I am forever bound by the past but I do acknowledge it.  It's part of the testimony that God has given me.  Now I don't mean that the emotion is bad because the emotion is love, freedom, and redemption.  The emotion is big because the healing is big.   

Thank you, Linda, for holding me accountable and for being obedient.  Maybe the other reader of my blog thanks you too.  

Have a blessed week and I'll be back sooner than last time.

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, 
to those who are the called according to His purpose. 
                                                            Romans 8:28 

In Christ,
The McLean Queen